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INT. KITCHEN - NIGHT Jack and Tyler each stir a boiling pot. TYLER As the fat renders, the tallow floats to the surface. Remember the crap they taught you in Boy Scouts. JACK Hard to imagine you in Boy Scouts. TYLER This clear layer in glycerin. We'll mix it back in when we make the soap. Tyler sticks a spoon into a pot, lifts up a scoop of the glycerin layer. Then, he crabs a can, opens it. TYLER Lye -- the crucial ingredient. (adding lye to mix) Ancient peoples found their clothes got cleaner if they washed them at a certain spot in the river. Why? Because, human sacrifices were once made on the hills above this river. Year after year, bodies burnt. Rain feel. Water seeped through the wood ashes to become lye. The lye combined with the melted fat of the bodies, till a thick white soapy discharge crept into the river. Tyler licks his lips until they're gleaming wet. He takes Jack's hands and KISSES the back of it. TYLER The first soap was made from the ashes of heroes. Like the first monkeys shot into space. The saliva shines in the shape of the kiss. Tyler pours a bit of the flaked lye onto Jack's hand. TYLER Without sacrifice, without death, we would have nothing. Jack's whole body JERKS. Tyler holds tight to Jack's hand and arm. Tears well in Jack's eyes; his face tightens. TYLER This is a chemical burn. It will hurt more than you've ever been burned and you will have a scar. Jack looks -- the burn is swollen, glossy, in the shape of Tyler's kiss. Jack's face spasms. JACK (V.O.) Tyler's kiss was a bonfire on the back of my hand. TYLER Look at your hand. JACK (V.O.) Guided meditation worked for cancer, it could work for this. SHOT OF A GREEN MAPLE LEAF, GLISTENING WITH DEW. RESUME: Tyler looks at Jack's glazed and detached eyes. TYLER Come back to the pain. Don't shut this out. Jack, snapping back, tries to jerk his hand away. Tyler keeps hold of it and their arms KNOCK UTENSILS off the table. JACK (V.O.) I tried not to think of the words "searing" or "flesh." I imagined my pain as a ball of healing white light. SHOT OF A FOREST, IN GENTLE SPRING RAINFALL. RESUME: Tyler JERKS Jack's hand, getting Jack's attention... TYLER Stop it. This is your pain -- your burning hand. It's right here. Look at it. JACK (V.O.) I was going to my cave to find my power animal. SHOT OF THE INSIDE OF JACK'S FROZEN ICE CAVE. RESUME: Tyler JERKS Jack's hand again. Jack re-focuses on Tyler... TYLER Don't deal with this the way those dead people do. Deal with it the way a living person does. SHOT OF INSIDE THE ICE CAVE - ON MARLA, LYING NAKED UNDER A FUR COAT, TURNING HER HEAD TO LOOK TOWARDS US. RESUME: Jack tries to pull his hand free. Tyler won't let go. Jack's eyes glaze over again. Jack speaks, whiny from pain: JACK I... I think I understand. I think I get it... TYLER No, what you're feeling is premature enlightenment. SHOT OF A GREEN FOREST WITHOUT RAIN. RESUME: Tyler SLAPS Jack's face, regaining his attention... TYLER This is the greatest moment of your life and you're off somewhere, missing it. JACK No, I'm not... SHOT OF TREES ENGULFED BY A FOREST FIRE. RESUME: TYLER Shut up. Our fathers were our models for God. And, if our fathers bailed, what does that tell us about God? JACK I don't know... SHOT OF EMBERS POURING FROM THE HELLISH FOREST FIRE. RESUME: Tyler SLAPS Jack's face again... TYLER Listen to me. You have to consider the possibility that God doesn't like you, he never wanted you. In all probability, He hates you. This is not the worst thing that can happen... JACK It isn't... ? TYLER We don't need him... JACK We don't... ? SHOT OF INSIDE ICE CAVE - NAKED MARLA PULLS JACK DOWN ON TOP OF HER - JACK KISSES HER - CIGARETTE SMOKE COMES FROM HER MOUTH - JACK COUGHS. RESUME: Jack is a wide-eyed zombie... JACK ... Marla ... ? TYLER Fuck damnation. Fuck redemption. We are God's unwanted children, with no special place and no special attention, and so be it. Jack looks at Tyler -- they lock eyes. Jack does his best to stifle his spasms of pain, his body a quivering, coiled knot. He bolts toward the sink, but Tyler holds on. TYLER You can go to the sink and run water over your hand. Look at me. Or you can use vinegar to neutralize the burn, but first you have to give up. First, you have to know that someday, you are going to die. Until you know that, you will be useless. Jack spasms with a shiver of pain... JACK You ... you don't know what this feels like, Tyler. Tyler shows Jack a LYE-BURNED KISS SCAR on his own hand. Tears begin to drip from Jack's eyes. Tyler grabs a bottle of VINEGAR -- pours it over Jack's wound. Jack closes his eyes, holds his hand... slumps to the floor. TYLER Congratulations. You're a step closer to hitting bottom.